Mid-life mini-Crisis

When I was but a young lad in my mid-20's I felt that I was going through a mid-life crisis. I later read an article on the subject that said more and more younger people (20's, 30's) are having mid-life crises and it defined a mid-life crisis as going through a point in your life where you realize that things are not the way you meant them (or wanted them) to be. So you freak out.

Well, I feel like I'm having another one of those these days... but it could be that I'm just in a slightly perpetual funk. Job uncertainties for both of us and the whole kid-for-life thing settling in finally is contributing.

I think one of the first casualties of this mini-crisis is, unfortunately, my current homegroup: I'm done. Finished. We have put a bunch of effort into going as consistently as possible, but I always feel like I'm fighting an uphill battle with the folks there. I feel like we only click w/ a few of the other couples, and then they're the ones that don't come that often. It's so hard to make it work at 7pm when you have a kid w/ a 8pm or 8:30pm bedtime. F it. I'm done with homegroups and bible studies. People don't want to study... they want to socialize and hang out. " I've put in a 40 hour week, dammit!" They want to share ideas and experiences in a safe environment.

What now? Lemme tell you what now. We're gonna call a couple of hard, kitchen-hitten' friends to do a small-kid-friendly Social Dinner every week or so. It will meet at 5:30pm, Eat dinner at 6:30pm and leave whenever your kid starts to get tired! Single people encouraged to come! This segregation shit is for the birds.

I told you I was in a funk!